Profound.

I think I was wrong when I wrote that monologue about sentences. I wasn't wrong because it wasn't "true." Actually I was both wrong and right. See I've decided I was wrong because the paragraph only works because of the assumption that things end. I prefere idea of "universial present." That is we are one with our past, present and future. Parts of our life do end, but they never really spot influencing us.

Yeah, I think I just read the most PROFOUND 50 pages of my life. Not the best. I mean let's say fantastic literature is woven as well as one of those super-expensive 6969 thread count sheets. I'd give Tale of Two Cities the prize for softest sheet, but this book I just finished I'd give a prize because it had toasters or something on it...AND I KILLED THE METAPHOR. But point being: I think I'm really understanding another lesson. I'm not even sure what that lesson is yet, but somehow I think when I next sit down to write, I'll know exactly what to say.

I was thinking while I was reading two things about my life: The first being that I never really chose where I went to college. I just ended up here. I ended up in a place where I made friends and found a group I was really passionate about. That is why fortune smiles on me. But the more important thing I realized is...I'm drawing a blank right now because I HAD to mention two things that I realized instead of just skipping right to the really profound thing. OMG. YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKING HOW PROFOUND COULD IT BE IF YOU JUST FORGOT IT? But you obviously don't know me...

I'm fairly certain there has to be some "force" out there controlling which things enter my life...Like this year alone I've stumbled upon so many things that have changed my life...Epica, that book series. Okay fine. Niether seem very life-altering, but trust me when I say I SEE THINGS THAT AREN'T THERE.

Why can't I remember what I was thinking about? Oh I got it! I was pondering how I think if I took an intelligence test now I would score worse than I would have 3 years ago. Meaning that college made me dumber. lmao. On the contrary, I'm INFINITELY wiser than I was three years ago. I just haven't taken any classes that would boost me abiltiy to know whatever those tests test. Like take for instance people who go on to study math or science, they obviously know more math and science than when they were in high school. I on the other hand would have known more math when I was in high school. Then you have your people who live to know popular culture. They know more about movies or television than they did in the past. Once again, I was more up on my areas of pop. culture interest in the past. So then am I an intellectual graveyard? Honestly? NO! I don't know a lot about anything. But I aspire to have a working knowledge of everything. Like a red mage. Except I would never use a red mage in final fantasty because they aren't as powerful...so I know let's use the mostly useless white mage?! Like I stated earlier, I wonder if anyone ever beat FF with a team of four white mages? I SO want to google that.

WOW. RANDOM. Okay. Actually I just googled it, but haven't looked at the results...

This is a perfect example of how my brain works. But as I was saying before I digressed into FF, I don't appear to know anything more than I did three years ago. I don't even know if I can really write any better than I did then. But one thing I do know for a fact is that I know more about society, about people. I know how to fight hopelessness. I know how to survive, to live. I have given better advice to my friends now than I ever could have given to people in the past. Only because in the past I was the one who needed the advice. But in all honesty, where did I get the advice that saved? Myself? I don't know and I am certainly not going into that right now...

Let's talk about EPICA instead! YAY, EPICA<3

So! This year I get to look forward to not only a new WT albumb, but also Edenbridge, Tarja and Floor (the really hilarious singer from the ill-fated After Forever) are releasing new stuff!!!! I KNOW RIGHT<3 WHO'S EXCITED!

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