Lonely.

Upon further examination of my life, I've discovered I'm very lonely. Now I previously had a theory that I had lots of pent up sexual tension, but this time I think I actually want to have a companion...something who will be there with me all the time, will understand all my inside jokes, will tease me with the best intentions, will just know...and who is, of course, as witty and brilliant as me. I imagined her as being as those things. I wanted her to be all those things.

I see so many of my friends with guys (hell, I'm not even so picky that I want someone of the opposite sex...know let's rephrase: I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT SOMEONE OF THE SAME OR OPPOSITE SEX. WTF. I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY SEXUAL PREFERENCE IS!!!), and I genuinely feel bad. Because I guess that's what life is about...striving to find a partner.

So I guess I'm lonely. I would like a boy/girl friend. Didn't think I'd ever say that. Aren't I going to be all like OMGNOWAITHAT'SSOGROSS. Probably not. I would probably in no way associate romance with THAT. OMG, THIS IS SO WEIRD! OMG.OMG.OMG. I'M KINDA INDEPENDENT SO FOR ME TO WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK.

BUT I DO. I WANT A SIGNIFICANT OTHER.