On friends...

I thought this one up yesterday afternoon before my mind got totally fried by things and didn't feel like doing any deep thinking.

In light of losing my best friend, my whole outlook on friends and relying on people has totally changed. I used to think she was my other half and I could not be complete without her. Obviously this isn't true since I have fought perfectly well on my own all this time, but I truly relied on this reality of knowing someone understood me in the past when I was so tormented. Looking upon myself with more lucid eyes I understand that we are ultimately our own best friends. It is up to me to accept myself, to comfort myself and to fight for myself.

For me though I find that I find tons of comfort in my imagination. Hell, I have an imaginary friend ^_^ Really in my mind there is someone with me who represents what I think the perfect friend would be...so I can say my best friend is the sum of everything I find perfect and everything I would want to be...some of this gathered from bands I love, from places I love, from far off fantasies I wish I could live...you know...

I present you the song of the day: Lunatica's WHO YOU ARE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ydR1OPTxKU&feature=channel_page

Frozen and broken
Don't know where you're going
Losing your identity
You're so caught up in hiding
But everybody sees

You're never gonna feel
You're never gonna heal
You're never gonna know what's fake or real
'Til you know who you are
You're lying to your face
And running in a race
You're never gonna win 'til you find your place
And you know who you are

You're crawling and falling
But no one hears you calling
When you're in a world of glass
'Til your bubble bursts
And the true you's first
You're always coming last

[Chorus]

You take yourself apart
To medicate the pain
It shouldn't be this hard
To believe in you again

Totally true!!!