Sin

I'm going to listen to "She Is My Sin" while I post this just because it is SORT OF related.

My sophmore year of highschool (four years ago ^_^) I had this english teacher who just didn't like me (I didn't misbehave that much...) Alex and I called her "Sin" after the main boss from FFX. Sin had this thing about English majors...YOU ALL SHOULD BECOME ENGLISH MAJORS!!! Oh Sin guess who is an English major...(kinda...)

The person you hated...who never talked in class and never read and made stuff up...and whose board game you gave a bad grade to despite the emmence amount of creativity and work that went into that thing...yeah.

Sin once told my parents, she wished I would work with other people besides Alex. I guess, she thought Alex was holding me back...that I was hiding.

This is very true too. I didn't want to walk alone then...couldn't do anything alone. I need someone else to justify my existence. She was my other half...still is...or at least the memory. I know I relied on her too much and that is why this hurts so much...

"I just thought we'd have more time." Alex once said senior year...We do and we don't...it's a choice. It's sad thinking back and funny and ironic and beautiful.

"All I loved, all I have known...but I believe I'm never far from home."

Listening to the theme song from Rogue Galaxy now...that of course is the game I was playing while I was really depressed so even the thought of it brings about WEIRD feelings, but I still really love the song.

Oh shit yeah I forgot..."Had enough symphonies of sorrow" I'm not going to listen to Poet and the Pendulum again...it's a little thing I have going on. It means something to me not listening to it. I would fail at explaining that though.