Exciting!

Today was pretty rocking ^_^

The morning was a drag though...I woke up at around 9ish...after a very nice WT aided rest, but I was far too restless to get any real work down so I was just poking around the introwebs until it was time for work...which brings me to the first order of business...I worked for the first time ever today!!! In the dining hall of my dorm, that is, which won't be so great once the novelty wears off but hey it was fine today. I got shifts that really don't interefere with my life that much since I have that time devoted to lunch anyway and Monday night isn't a really hard time for school work usually. Hopefully this all works out well enough. I was a little nervous cuz I can be a bit of a clutz and not pay attention and all that...likes this is really ironic. Right after I spent the last hour and a half cleaning, I spilled soda while I was getting lunch myself...Yeah, we rushed to rememdy the situation though ^_^

Also today I wrote a review of one of my favorite albums...April Rain (Delain lol)...and sent it off as an informal writing sample. I really want to write this entertainment magaziene on campus...Heh. Yip! Already had some friends say it was good, but I never know with my writing...I think it is rather cheesey or immature.

I just wish for once I could see myself for what I really am...objectively that...like the rest of the whole who is not me does. Then maybe I would truly believe I am smart, talented and all that. I'm getting really tired of putting myself down all the time...really tired of saying bad stuff about myself just in case the person I say it to thinks that to so it is like I am making a joke out of it. That is all cowards work. I have things I want to do...and I'm only holding myself down here with all these thoughts that I am ugly, awkward, lame, unlikable and whatnot.

But honestly after growing up with all this rushing through my head, it is hard to escape...but then again I am quite good at getting way from my past. Regardless, I must keep following this path...

"Have to stand up to be stronger"