Almost Too...

Excited for the future! Almost so excited that I"m starting to get extremely anxious and not know what to do with myself.

I mean I've been having a lot of fun lately...Things seem to be slightly looking up again. Not that ever weren't--just I was bogged down by thoughts that I was wasting my life and thoughts about Alex and Sarah....So, yeah. I guess now I'm beginning to let go.

I've always found hope in idealism. Thus the the desire to "save the world." Which is why I'm so dang excited about the opportunity to go to Cali for a weekend for FeelGood. A whole weekend in Cali with other people who think like me! So inspiring!!!

Speaking of inspiring, I have a new hero. (well, sorta Sharon will always be my unspoken favorite. For me, Sharon's the paramount of everything that I good in the world. Unrealistic? Of course, but who cares, you know!) But for awhile, earlier this year, I was totally comparing myself to Simone, thinkingI wasn't as good as person because I wasn't as accomplished. Really bad idea, btw. First of all, none of my desires even have anything to do with Simone's. I don't want to sing. So why compare?

With that said, Simone really can't be my idol since you know, what do I really have to learn from her? Okay, so we have something to learn from everyone, but as I grow, I think...Oi, I found something more interesting than my silly rants.