It’s a deep pit, this hole I’m in
Good for drowning, like the beloved night
I’ve had a blast in my away
Where nothing but dirt looks upon my shameful soul
Such a scary world out there
So much safer in this shelter I dug
Going down, I whispered to fellow ghosts
Destroyed like the crumbled stone
My own hands helped to carve
A cave-in, a rockslide of dreams that never were
Remind me I’m a liar, fantasizing a self from my dirty shade
Wishing now I could have one last chance to at least
Stand in the shadow of the stone friends
As the sky is orange and red and my own hands turn grey
Impatience blasted the statues, my heart breathed life
Into those quiet beings who sought refuge from the pick
That would chisel their beings, change their essence
Looking down I see wreckage at my feet
That stands as the ultimate mark of my sins
More so than this shame within me
There is no going back, no putting things right
In my pit I sleep these painful days away
There’s a spot somewhere on my mind
Saying this is not how things should go
Not the bright adventures I told tales of
Knowing this darkness isn’t life
This huddled bundle of defeat and failure
Isn’t the one I draw in my mind as imagine what could be
Who I hear screaming to set myself free
Begging to let her in, get myself out
She doesn’t know why I used her heart to dig this hole
Couldn’t I take her hand and skip to the horizon
Where we almost were until I dug to avoid the rain
Shifted through the soil, had to find the root
Of an issue I should have let die
Before my hands tore the stem
Seeping the life blood of the bond that made me
Unto my own hands, tainting my everything
Entwined in the vines knotting and choking
Tears falling as a sign death wasn’t my intention
Digging through the strata, won’t be looking myself in the eyes
Any sooner than I stare truth down and walk around
Trust blew into the wind and I don’t even want to know
Where the pieces ended up, where I will never go
The world isn’t as simple as when I rebuilt my heart
Now I must go on bleeding clearly, thinking clearly
From my hole I thought to control those who drew my blood
Sadly now my powers could not ease the strife
Guilt as my shovel digging and digging
Crying for the gathering of stone friends
The shore they together again would not see
I’d love to tell her I swam through the ice
Can’t though, you know, don’t want to see those icy eyes
Would love to try to piece together the stone fragments
But these cuts run deeper than gravity can hold and
Gravity draws me deeper to the stone core
With my hands digging, my words harsh
Never felt bad for my transgressions, fight for the fun of it
Rocks tumble down upon me, become part of me
I’d cry but I’d drown and I can’t swim up, not to open arms
Stabbing meaninglessly, it does not matter
My own hands weapons for who knows what I am capable of
Corruption is a game and I’m the master
Lying until no one knows the truth
No one will accept I’m the killer
Who brought this hell upon us
I hit stone, nails bleed form scratching
Can’t get out with words, can’t go back on my actions
Stuck in my hole, stuck where my lungs fill with dirt
Eyes cloud, hope evaporates and I just want out
I could break free without the guilt but
This whole mess is my sin and I cannot bear to see
The ending my actions wrote into this play
Search in blame, seek in words
See within me, see there is nothing there
The room is still dark, he turned the light off
In shadow as his hands set us on this path
Poor sleeping child who dreamed of the sun and stars
Whose stories define the world she could not bear
To be like all else I’d push her into the corner
In shadow she cried and wished I’d hold her
We’re on this path for good or bad
It’s not in my hands, I am not the sinner
It’s a nice excuse though, victim is the easy role
Sidekick has no fame, but I’ll do it, for her
Take the stones that hold her in the corner
Turn the light on reveal her tales aren’t far from what I am
Once trying was surviving, I always tried
I’d rather strike her, she bruises easy
I learned from the ones who should have prevented that
I am the villain, flinging rocks at myself but
She tells me we can use that same strength to climb out
Should I though knowing my words were the acid that dissolved bonds
It was only me who could save us from the start
Blaming the uncaring friend for turning me cruel
Sorrow for having nothing, it can’t be so
I cannot be that, I tell her we’re leaving now
Not for the liar but for the dreamer
Pain on the horizon with the decaying friends
My hole is no longer safe
These walls are coming in with madness
Building up within my weary heart
Where to go when I cannot forgive
Neither horizon nor shore bring comfort
All I want is the foundation where it was
Wandering weaponless across an expanse
She says we can take the pale, frozen world
We know their secret, it was whispered as
The ice melted and the sun guided me free
I’m staying I guess with her now for awhile
Going to prove my words are more than insanity
Without the friend it seems, my tears will not take her form
Away is not so far, just a step out from under these rocks
I’ll let her use her power if she promises only to heal
